Dear self

Dear self,
You are strong.
It's not weak to cry.
It's not weak to need to talk about it.
It's okay to struggle.
Only about 1% of women go through this.
No one's tired of you.
And if they are, then they're not worth your time.
You've only missed 4 days of work through 3 miscarriages.
That is amazing (and, let's face it, a little nuts).
Don't compare yourself to other women who've been through worse.
There's no magic number of miscarriages you have to reach before you can move on.
Just because doctors recommend trying again and again doesn't mean you have to.
mrohkay supports you, and you're lucky to be on the same page.
(He's pretty cute, by the way.)
You will be a mom.
You will be an aunt first, and that's okay.
I just thought you needed to hear this today.
Have a good day.
love,
me

Thank you

I am overwhelmed by the support I've received on Twitter and from LFCA. Thank you all so much.

This weekend was strange for me and my family. On Friday we learned that my pregnancy was a loss and that my younger sister is having a girl. I'm trying my best not to let the jealousy take over. (Prior to the miscarriages I would have said I really wanted a girl, but by #3 I was sticking to the "I just want it to be healthy" line.) She's treading so carefully around my feelings, and I feel awful that she can't just enjoy her pregnancy like everyone deserves to. And I'm trying not to dwell on how her pregnancy has been so easy and mine have all been so, umm, short.

It is what it is. But back to the point of this post - thank you a thousand times.